I feel as though I am going crazy! I have had baby fever for the full 3 months we have been married and even before that! Dont get me wrong. I absolutely adore my husband. I love him more than anything! And would never do anything to hurt him.
The problem is though.....I want kids now and he doesnt! And for some unexplainable reason I cannot bring my head to understand this. I feel all alone. Which does make sense considering he is the more realistic side of me. But its strange...
Okay so the other day he was getting all excited about kids; watching pregnancy and adoption videos. Which he never does and he was getting really excited! And I thought that maybe he was you know, wanting a baby by then. Then today he's like we should wait to have kids.
WTF?! I don't get it! I feel as though he is toying with my emotions and mocking me again! I DON'T GET IT! I mean weighing out what you can and cant do with a baby are pretty small for the things you cant do.
Money: Yes, we work at Burger King. Yes, we make minimum wage. But, you know what? Plenty of people do that. And sides I'm trying to decide on a business i can do at home.
Traveling: That's a real biggie for him. But, once again, it can be done with a baby. Sides i have a severe phobia of flying right now.
Relationship: I have to agree with him on that one. It could be stronger.
-Personal relationship with God: Needs to be worked on severely
I just cant grasp and understand it.
But, we have possibly talked about February. I hope we can start trying in a year. I don't think i can wait much longer than a year.
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