Stupid Germs

   So, unfortunately I got 'THE COLD'. I got this cold from my husband who i specifically told not to give it to me. So, he kissed me. And gave it to me. This is why it is THE COLD. Stupid germs.

We have decided to try for a baby maybe next year. My husband finally told me today that he was ready. And you should have seen the look on my face. I seriously thought that i was going to start doing handstands or something.
   I know it wont be any time this year. I mean with all the holidays and us just getting married; it would be super hard. Plus i kinda just want these holidays to be ours. So....umm yeah.

   I think though when we have kids we will do both disposables and cloth diapers. Cloth diapers are cheaper in the long run. But, disposables do have the convenience. So, I think that if we use cloth for during the day, and maybe at night, then we can use disposables at night, trips and visits. And depending on what kind of babysitter then we might use disposables then too.

So going to start stocking up on those as well. Since I dont know what baby will actually like or what will work i was thinking of getting.

2 All In Ones

2 Fitted/ 2 covers

2 prefolds/ 2 covers

2 contours/ 2 covers

2 All In 2's

2 flats/ 2 covers

A sprayer

A bog of g-diapers

And a swimming diaper

And then once we do get pregnant we will buy like a box of size 1 diapers every other month starting my 6th month.

Well I  think thats it this post!

PEACE

Baby

       We have come up with names:
-Elijah Matthew
-Jasmine Abigail
-Heaven Aria
And Jonah. We dont have a middle name for him yet.

   And yes I am completely and utterly crazy. I have and will be collecting baby supplies even before we get pregnant. That way I have most of everything before the baby is born. And because we know we are all bored. Here is the list of things for  baby and what i already have:

BABY LIST:

Infant Car Seat/car seat

Stroller

High chair

Pack and Play

Swing

Crib: May just use a pack and play

Diaper bag

Rocking Chair: This would be nice to have. But, not a necessity 

Dresser

Baby gates

Baby tub: Not a necessity

Moby sling

Ergo Carrier

Swimming doughnut: For older baby

Grocery cart cover

Baby oil

Baby Einstein videos: If we let them watch tv

Headrest for the car seat

Picture frames

Nursing pads

Bumper pads for crib

Thermometer

Nasal suction

Breast pump: I want both electric and manual

Alcohol wipes: Going to maybe substitute with Lavendar oil

Laundry detergent

Infant Tylenol

Baby powder: Not sure if I am going to use this or not

Body wash

Medicine dropper

Lotion

Shampoo

Diaper rash cream

Brush/comb

vaseline

Q-tips

Lanolin gel

Hooded bath towels

Diaper pail: Trash can with closed lid

Stroller cover for bugs

Sunvisors for car windows

Crib mobile

Baby book

Night light

Portable change pad

Diapers:
--Disposables
--Fitted cloth diapers
--AIO cloth diapers

Blankets/sheets

Recieving blankets

fitted sheets

baby books to read

bottles and liners

Bottle cleaning brush

wipes

bowls/ spoons

sippy cups

Tummy time mat

baby monitor

crib toys

baby toys

soothers

teething rings

air dry stand for bottles

Bibs: Already have 3 pink and 3 blue

cute outfits

Sleepers

Onesies

Hoods/hats

socks

Coming home outfit

Jackets

Snowsuit

Pants

shirts

shorts

swimming diaper
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Maternity
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nursing bras

pants 

skirts

dresses

shorts

short sleeved shirts

panties

stretch mark cream

body pillow

midwife supplies and fee

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And if I use the baby cost calculator online at : www.BabyCenter.com

It will look aomething like this:

Occasional babysitter: 25.00 per month x 12 months

Disposable diapers: 72.00 per month x 12 months
---Wipes: 20.00 per month x 12 months

Solid food: 30.00 per month x 12 

Clothes: 20.00 per month x 12

College: 10.00 per month x 12

Medical: 23.00 per month x 12

Toiletries: 15.00 per month x 12

Toys/ media: 20.00 per month x 12 

GRAND TOTAL:

$2,580.00 thats for ongoing costs. Not bab. Will be less though considering we are going to use both disposables and cloth diapers! :)

I'm going crazy

          I feel as though I am going crazy! I have had baby fever for the full 3 months we have been married and even before that! Dont get me wrong. I absolutely adore my husband. I love him more than anything! And would never do anything to hurt him.

   The problem is though.....I want kids now and he doesnt! And for some unexplainable reason I cannot bring my head to understand this. I feel all alone. Which does make sense considering he is the more realistic side of me. But its strange...

Okay so the other day he was getting all excited about kids; watching pregnancy and adoption videos. Which he never does and he was getting really excited! And I thought that maybe he was you know, wanting a baby by then. Then today he's like we should wait to have kids.

    WTF?! I don't get it! I feel as though he is toying with my emotions and mocking me again! I DON'T GET IT! I mean weighing out what you can and cant do with a baby are pretty small for the things you cant do.

Money: Yes, we work at Burger King. Yes, we make minimum wage. But, you know what? Plenty of people do that. And sides I'm trying to decide on a business i can do at home.

Traveling: That's a real biggie for him. But, once again, it can be done with a baby. Sides i have a severe phobia of flying right now.

Relationship: I have to agree with him on that one. It could be stronger.
-Personal relationship with God: Needs to be worked on severely

I just cant grasp and understand it.

But, we have possibly talked about February. I hope we can start trying in a year. I don't think i can wait much longer than a year.